operation beautiful

i'm settled in my new place and am loving it.
"they" say once you live by yourself, you'll never want roommates again.
we will see how that goes.
i am definately learning to entertain myself.
its cool and peaceful and boundaryless.
(yes, boundaryless is a word)

real quick, because it's late and this weekend has been exhausting and i highly don't recommend moving twice in one week, i wanted to share with you something i stumbled upon.
we all can learn a little something about kindness from this.
spread the love.

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day seven

i'm moving back in with the p's at the end of this week.
bitter sweet.
no rent check.
no utility bill.
no cable bill.
no freedom

so some soul searching had to take place.
yes, i love my parents and am glad to see the above mentioned bills x'ed off the list, but i will miss the freedom and independence with living alone. (or with a roommate, but still more alone than with parents)
cooking alone.
watching t.v. alone.
being alone.

a state of being i have grown to love, yet hate to be.
alone.

i watched another movie today called Broken English. its a 2007 Sundance film and stars Parkey Posey and Drea de Matteo. it, like Amelie, is about searching for life and finding happiness. joyful film.
a clip from the film where parker posey's character, nora, meets this man at a bar and he gives her a piece of informtation.
man "most people are together just so they are not alone, but some people want magic. i think you are one of those people"
nora "is there something wrong with that.""
man "nothing but it doesn't happen all the time."
nora "does it ever happen?"
man "first of all you must find happiness in yourself, do you understand"
nora "i think so"
man "tomorrow you will start your life again"

this is close to one of my favortie quotes out of a movie. maybe because it hits so close to home for me at this moment.
in a time where i'm creating me and who i want to be and working on falling in love with myself, this was just a vote of confidence.
many of my friends have boyfriends, are falling in love and some are getting married. i'll admit its getting hard...and i'm only 23!
i in no way want to be walking down an aisle anytime soon, unless its filled with shoes or doughnuts, so i am in no rush to get married.
but it gets lonely sometimes. so movies like this are a breath of fresh air.

i'll continue to have my outrageous demands of the guy of my dreams, and if he never comes...i'll be ok as long as i am ok with me!
and i'm working on that :)

i saw a quote once that read "you are never alone if you like the person you're alone with"
touché

i think the past 6 months livin' out on my own has been a trying time.
i've hated myself.
been disappointed in myself.
extremely happy.
pissed off.
sad.
mad.
overjoyed.
memories that i will have forever.
so where i may be going back home, i'm going back a wiser person.
and for that i am thankful and ready for the next chapter of my life.

semi-day two

Amélie
It is technically day two, precisely 12:14 am, as I begin my second post.

So far, I will admit, I've spent more time on this blog than Facebook on a normal day. But my excuse is....drumroll please....this is new and I've had to take time to create it.

you're welcome ;)

Back to Amelie...

...wait, not yet.

-A pet peeve of mine is when something isn't spelled right.

And Amelie doesn't have the acute accent above the first e. I THOUGHT I figured it out by holding down the alt key while pressing 130.

Release.

Voila...didn't work.

Curse it.

I did it again.

Voila is supposed to have a grave accent above the a. Apparently hp knew one day I was going to start writing a fascinating blog and they didn't want this to happen. So they decided to put this obstacle in my way - yeah, yeah ,yeah, you Mac lovers. I'm sure your Mac never leaves off an accent marking -

Amelie and Voila it is.

NOW back to Am(acute accented e)lie....

Amelie is a French film. Filmed in 2001. Amelie was nominated for 5 Oscars. Another 51 wins and 46 nominations.

Interesting I chose to watch this today. The day I start this blog....on the journey of creating myself.

Amelie's alleged heart condition forces her to live a sheltered life. She finds a long lost treasure and vows to return it to it's rightful owner. After witnessing his reaction, she decides to set out on bringing happiness to others.

Doing this for a while is fun, but Amelie soon realizes she hasn't done much for herself. After being reminded by a neighbor, she's grown to respect, that she can't be a brittle person, she decides to take life by the horns and falls in love with the life she created.

Watch this movie or you are a perdant - french for loser
(and yes BLOCKBUSTER has it) :)

Familiar, you say? Sounds like someone you know, you say?

I sure hope so :)

*and just for your curiousity...the time is now, precisely 1:14 am